A Journey Through Life

I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle! ~Alice In Wonderland~

Caterpillar: Who... are... you?

Alice: Why, I hardly know, sir. I've changed so much since this morning, you see...

Caterpillar: I do not see. Explain yourself.

Alice: I'm afraid I can't explain myself, you see, because I'm not myself, you know.

Caterpillar: I do not know.

Alice: I can't put it any more clearly, sir, because it isn't clear to me.

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Monday, May 18th 2009

11:20 PM (299 days, 6h, 36min ago)

Head on the fritz...

Mood: very depressed
Sound: tru tv (forensic files)
Quote: "Wise men say only fools rush in, but I can't help falling in love with you."~lyrics~ we may have rushed in but boy am I head over heals for her! She's my all!

Sometimes I wish I could detach my head and send it in to something like the geeksquad for computers. Just send it in, sign your slip, and then have it returned to you in 5 to 7 business days in fine working order...I am off all of my meds...money is too tight, and I don't have insurance right now and what my doctors have prescribed (without insurance) will cost close to if not over 2,000 a month...I can't afford that...that is more than my rent...and I live in a fairly nice house...

I am so tired. I feel like I get nothing accomplished in a day yet get more and more tired, more and more exhausted...and not always in the physical...sometimes I may be physically awake but just mentally incapable of rational, comprehensible thought...so much goes on in a day...so many troubles...so many trials right now...I look back and I know I have been through really hard times in the past...I look back and know that those in my family have been through very rough patches in life...and I think, this should be nothing...we should be able to take this all as a grain of sand...but in the here and now...it just doesn't seem to work that way...

It is 11:15 at night...my alarm goes off at 2:00 a.m. I just washed up the dishes, and I need to put a little bit of this laundry away (really need to put all of it away)...*sigh*...I want to disappear again...I was starting to look up and do good for a little bit...not long, but it was a start and better than nothing...and then it was like the world came crashing down again...saying, "yeah right bitch, don't even get your hopes up..."

On a good note before I sign off tonight...My grandmother is still coming in June to visit major happy about that...but now my sister is getting to come too...I can't believe it but I actually miss (really really miss) my little sister...and of course I miss my meemaw...she is so precious...I love her tons and miss her more...

Anyway...

Until next time...stay safe, stay sweet...

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