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Renee: Thinking of you ~ maybe you could send me your email and we could try it that way. Updated a small amount. Am missing you and hope that you are smiling. I love you xoxoxox
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Thursday, July 10th 2008

9:21 AM (751 days, 9h, 26min ago)

Nightmare on Bronze Rd.

  • Mood: Depressed
  • Sound: The Fan

My own personal nightmare on elm street novel is unfolding...but it is all unfolding within me...not externally but internally...

I'm going crazy...I just know it...

My head is splitting from all the noise...be it inside or outside who knows who cares...point is it hurts...My chest hurts from the panic attacks and I hate not being able to breath...I want to cut ALL the time...I want to do a lot worse than cut but so far I have withheld and been a "good girl" like I always (well like I have been for the last 2 years anyway)...

I have had 3 break downs in the past 7 days...today being one of them...

I cry at the drop of a hat...sometimes there are little reasons...sometimes big ones...and sometimes no reason...

I either don't eat or I make myself throw it up...or I am up in the middle of the night when everyone else is asleep doing tae bau until I make myself sick or near the point of passing out...

Why do I do all of this or want to do all of this...because EVERYTHING is out of control within me right now...nothing makes sense...or has for a long time...and I just need to know that I am the one controlling something...I can make MYSELF bleed...I can make MYSELF starve...I can make MYSELF vomit...I can make MYSELF passout...

I'm tired...I'm sore...and I hate everything about myself right now...I would say everything about life...but there are 3 things that make me refrain from that statement....

1.Carol

2.Joshua

3.Aurora

I'm tired................................................................................................

1 WHISPER.

Posted by Renee A:

I know what you are feeling. I wish I could say something to take it away and make you feel better. Are you on some meds? I just got back on mine and they are helping al ot. I am just a phone call away if you need me ... I am thinking of you and am here for you no matter what. I love you.
Wednesday, July 16th 2008 @ 1:45 PM (745 days, 5h, 2min ago)

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